Here's To Many More
Happy New Year!!!!!!!!............. Ok, yes I am a bit behind but I am not losing any sleep over it, and neither should you.
This past year has been a dream and also a bit of a nightmare. What value would the best days have if we didn't have the opportunity to meet the worst ones face on? I have come to know myself far better than I ever have, and now vulnerably I say that I am learning to love myself in all of my well Me-ness if you will. Humbly I say that I have never had the highest self-esteem and I look to the world finding a rather irrational standard to try and force myself into. In the words of an old roommate "I am not a square," nor do I ever intend to be one. So as we go into the 20's one more the prohibition on my will come to a screeching halt (Yes it was corny, you are welcome).
Please stay tuned for some fun adventures with me and my imagination!
WARNING!!! REALITY.......IF YOU DON"T WANT TO HEAR IT, CLOSE THIS POST NOW!!
I finally got into therapy for an eating disorder that I have left unchecked for the greater portion of my life and quite frankly it is really really hard. Anorexia has been a norm and nearly a security blanket for me in the times of my life where I didn't want to accept the reality of how difficult life can be. I am happy (? perhaps relieved or indifferent, I don't really know....insert emotion of undefinable qualities here) to say I have both a therapist and a dietitian guiding me through my recovery. Some days are a lot harder than others, and responses such as "I had no idea you had an eating disorder." or "You always looked ___ to me." are not helpful. This recovery is not to rectify how any of you see me, but how I see myself and my relationship with food. I appreciate your support, and as I go into this new year that we are already a month into. If you are curious as to what I am going through in recovery you can stay tuned on my recovery Instagram @abandoning_anorexia.